Monday, 17 October 2011

I know I said I wouldn't post but... guys have no idea how much of a good mood I'm in.

Joel came out of his room today. Elaine had moved him to his own place on the same floor as me a couple of days back and he'd locked himself up there tight. He looked pale as fuck, but his eyes...

Oh god his eyes. I recognised them, that warmth that I had never seen before in Wolf. I could feel him shaking as he held me and I just held him back, trying not to cry too much.

Admittedly saying "You need a shower." Was not the most romantic thing for me to say at that moment, but it was true. I grabbed some food for him whilst he was showering and brought it up to him.

I can't stop thinking about what happened when I saw his dripping wet body, just in a towel as he moved over to me, kissing me tenderly. He held me close and I squeaked. 

Dammit I don't squeak.

He laughed a little and said "The infection isn't gone but I'm me,  I swear I'm me. I'm mostly me anyway."

I reached up and felt it, the mark shifting like something was living underneath his skin.

On his neck, perverts...

He did the same to me. "Yours is still the same isn't it?" I nodded. Ever since the attack on Haven, since wolf had his little chat with me... Being crucified... I felt it, not a dangerous urge, but one to run away and find The Gentleman. It's been easy to control right now, but I understand how it can be unbearable.

Unbearable enough to cosh your boyfriend.

I sat him down and he ate. How he managed to eat whilst I was curled up against him is odd to me but he managed it anyway. We've been practically conjoined by the hip since this morning.

We've been talking, and kissing, and just doing things that normal couples do...

Oh! and cooking but I'll talk about that a little later.

There are moments where he isn't himself, but they don't last long, like seconds long. I see that stare, but then he's him again, he's smiling.

When I took Joel down to see Elaine, we ended up baking and deciding on a great big party for everyone to enjoy.




  1. Congratulations. Good luck on resisting too.

  2. Knew you could fight Joel. :) I'm giving you a thumbs up.

  3. Nice to have you back Joel. Hope I can meet you soon.

  4. I'm so glad he's back, and thanks for helping me bake, guys. The party was fun.

  5. im happy

    even wolves need a den

    and a mate

  6. Just want to wish you all the best, I would hate if something happened to Hope, And a question, anyone heard from M? like... AT ALL? Bugger has been gone for like two months without a word.

  7. Thanks, Atalanta, same goes for you,

    Opal: Joel's returning the thumbs up. :)

    Not: Well, it was a pleasure for me to meet you, even though it wasn't for that long.

    Elaine: Yeah. It was so fun. :)

    Rachael: Yeah, I'm happy too. I wish you the best.

    Lio: I have no idea where M is, he's elusive at the best of days. I've kind of gotten used to him vanishing off the face of the earth nowadays. :p