Wednesday 21 September 2011

Explanation

As far as cheating goes.
I am an arse.
I'd only seem more so
if I blamed it all on one or the other completely.

It was how I got my victims.
How I led them to me.
A hug here,
a peck on the cheek there.

More occasionally.

I was so absorbed in killing...
I didn't even notice that Joel...

The effects on Joel were too great.

When I was with Rachael,
on the way to see Schrodinger...
She got me to open up.
I felt so guilty...

She said... She said you'd understand.
I... I didn't know.
I don't think I can feel anything anymore.
There's just this

Other than anger,
I felt nothing.
Joel loves you...
I'm

I'm just a shell.

He's just my sheep's clothing.
If he knows me.
I would be surprised.
I fell into this so easily.

I don't even know if
there is a way out at all.
Other than dying.

I want Joel back.
I want to feel something again.
I'm going to try so hard to be
the man you fell for again.
 
Then I want to kill your stalker.

Fuck I'm craving a kill right now.

The Big Bad Wolf

10 comments:

  1. Please don't kill anymore people. Isn't that what sort of got you into this mess?

    You're still a person, even if you were Joel before. Now you just need to find a place in between.

    Hang in there and please try your hardest to start making things right. :)

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  2. That is the problem
    Dear Bunny.
    I am the place in between
    and I feel nothing.

    All I want is to kill,
    and I don't want to kill
    and it's torture.
    Do you understand?



    Please say you understand...

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  3. Just... Just come back Joel, Wolf, Whoever you are now. If you don't then I'll have to try and shoot you, and considering my hands, that's a bad idea.

    ~Lucas

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  4. I know you want to, but don't.

    It's not that you're two people combined, you're a completely new person.

    You're not Joel, and you're not Wolf.

    So you decide who you are.

    @Lucas, Be careful. Stay safe. And if you ever need a lift feel free to ask.

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  5. Listen to me.

    Go back to him.

    Its up to you, dear.

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  6. A Sheep in Wolves Clothing?!?!?!?! Oh by god! HAhahahaha such a contradiction! Hahaha!

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  7. I have him, it's like 5 AM but I have him.

    Thankyou, all of you except this dear Anarchist who can go fuck himself. :)

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  8. ... maybe you'll succeed where I never did.
    I believe in you, Joel. Wolf. No matter how stupid that is.

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  9. Lucas, remember me?

    I could help you with your relationship problems. I love the taste of wolf cooked over an open fire.

    You know that I can do it.

    As for you Wolf, I suggest you kill Lucas. You and I both know that he doesn't love you. It is the only solution to your problem.

    Good bye, you two. Have fun.

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  10. Sorry Thuggee? What was that? I couldn't work out what you were saying over the bullshit.

    And Spencer, I only just noticed this comment. Joel says thanks.

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